The whole truth…

When I decided to write this blog (which was, yesterday) I struggled with the point of view in which I would write my story. This story is very, very personal to me. Something in which I have avoided doing on this blog in the past. I decided it was a story that I needed to tell. A story, although, personal, I feel people need to read. It may be a bit vengeful, but the truth needs to be told, I think. It started out as a love story, but then that love turned and bit me in the ass. It’s a story about my relationship with my ex-boyfriend, and why he is my ex-boyfriend. I have referenced him before in this blog (Maytag Man/Tidy Bowl Man). In the end, it’s a story of my heartbreak.

I always come up with the title first, then I write. I have several titles in my head.

Why my ex is a Loser!
Why he said “I Love You” but decided to cheat and break my heart anyway
What goes around…

I could go on and on.

I never thought my break up with Maytag man/tidy bowl man would end up this way. Hell, I never thought we would break up!! I thought he was in it for the long-haul. If there is one thing that I want to step away from this relationship is with class and dignity, however, that’s not how the relationship ended.

I think I need to start with how it began for you, the reader, to understand…

Paul (that’s his name) and I started dating August 2007. Things started off well enough, a few dates here and there, then meeting of the friends. It was quite a whirlwind romance. We lived about 2 hours from each other so our weekends were our time. We had some really great times!! He even gave me a key to his house 2 months after we started dating. We had some talks about what might happen in the future, I explained to him, at one point, that my plans for life were marriage and a family, and if he didn’t want those things he needed to tell me. He told me that he was looking forward to starting a family one day. We even talked about what would happen if I got pregnant, how he would feel. He said that it wouldn’t be the exact way he planned on having a family, but he would be really excited about being a dad.

Fast forward to December. Were at a restaurant for dinner Xmas eve and he tells me that he loves me. Great!! I love him too. I thought I saw good things for us. Then we planned a trip to Las Vegas in February for my birthday. Four uninterrupted days together. Bliss!! We had a great time. No problems, very eb and flow. It was his first time in Vegas and I was happy that I could share that experience with him. From how our relationship was progressing and what Paul was telling me, I thought we were on the road to a future.

After we get home from Vegas, he asked me if I would go home with him for Easter and meet his family. I was like, sure, I would live to meet your family. We even talked about him coming to Greece to meet my family. He once told me that he would never take a girl home to meet his parents unless he was serious about her. So I went home with him for an overnight visit with his parents. A bit uncomfortable for me, but I endured for him. Around this time, Paul was getting phone calls from a recruiter to go and work for a company out of state. This job would move him further away from where I live. I wasn’t exactly happy about this, since he always stated to me that he would love to move to Chicago and work in the city. I asked him if he got the job what would happen to our relationship. He said, “let’s cross that bridge when we get to it.” Okay! Fine with me!!

Things in our relationship had come very easy for us. We got along well. Things never got too heavy. Which was fine. I don’t like to stress the small things. I guess we had the best of both worlds, we could be bf/gf on the weekends and during the week we had plenty of space to do as we choose, but the exclusivity of our relationship was always understood. Soon, Paul got the job offer from the out-of-state company which meant he would be moving, which was fine, but that move would mean that we would be living 3 hours from each other. Immediately, I was worried about how we would maintain our relationship, let alone try and build on it some more. Would our relationship stand an even greater distance? How could we grow closer if we were living further from each other? Furthermore, he always expressed to me that he wanted to try and get a job in Chicago, but he failed to even look for jobs in the city. But the company that hired him is a great company for the type of work he does. So I started thinking about how we could get over this road block.

Now, things become funny…

While I was helping him get his house I’m order so he can sell it and move out of state, I later discovered that he began searching the Internet for women. While I spent hours helping him paint cabinets, sweep and mop filthy wood floors, clean cob webs out of corners, wash nasty sheets and drapes, he was whoring himself out on the Internet. I only ever wanted us to be a team and learn to solve problems together, but I guess that was asking too much.

In mid-June, Paul started his new job. He moved and he grew more distant. He started calling me less, he used to call me every night, now he started calling me every other night. This is the time where his emails to other women were plentiful. At this time, he was emailing 6 or 7 different women. At the end of June he planned and went on a date with a girl he met on Match.com. Here is a string of emails that he had with a girl confirming plans for their date…

Re:Match.com Message:

Tuesday, July 1, 2008 11:15 PM

From: “Paul XXXXXXX” <XXXXXX@yahoo.com>

To:Rubxxxxx@talkmatch.com

Hi XXXXXX,

Yes, we’re on. Have you ever been to Mikey’s? It’s
down the street from Elsa’s. My brother recommended
it, so we can put the blame on him. I’m shooting for
7:30pm. Tell me if this is good for you.

Today was hectic. The owner of the house I put an
offer on turned all flakey, so now I’m looking again.
That’s fine; I wasn’t 100% with this one anyway. Who
would have thought it could be so hard in a buyer’s
market?

How was your day?

paul

_____________________________________________________________

Rubxxxxx@talkmatch.com wrote:Hi Paul:

Yep, we’re still on for tomorrow night. Looking
forward to meeting you. By the way, phones scare me
(at least initially), but here is my number …
(4XX) XXX-XXXX.

Meet you soon.

XXXXXXXXX

_____________________________________________________________________

Re:Match.com Message:

Wednesday, July 9, 2008 11:55 PM

From:

“Paul XXXXXXX” <XXXXX@yahoo.com>

To: rubxxxxxx@talkmatch.com

Hi XXXXXX,

how are you? How was your 4th? I had a very relaxing time in (enter state of residence here). Are you free this weekend? Look forward to hearing from you soon. Paul.

_____________________________________________________________________

From: <rubxxxxxxx@talkmatch.com>
To: <xxxxxx@yahoo.com>
Date: Thu, Jul 10, 2008 07:12 AM
Subject: Match.com Message: Hello

Hi Paul:

Good to hear from you. So glad to hear you had a great weekend (well deserved, I’m sure!). My holiday was great – I slept most of the day (very unlike me) and then traveled down to the Summerfest grounds to watch a good friend’s husband rock the Potawotami stage. The rest of the weekend was pretty tame.

With the exception of a work event Saturday night (I have to watch a “Best in Show” beagle throw out the first pitch at the Brewers game – don’t ask), I am wide open this weekend. Any thoughts?

Have a great day – it’s supposed to be beautiful!

XXXXXXXXX

____________________________________________________________________

Saturday, July 12, 2008 12:37 AM

From: “Paul XXXXXX” <Xxxxxx@yahoo.com>

To:rubxxxxx@talkmatch.com

Hi xxxxxxxx!

I’m up. I’ve been sick in bed all day. It was probably something i ate. I’ve got some family stuff on sunday that im going to be in milwaukee for. What time is the ballgame saturday for you?

Talk soon- paul

P.S That “family stuff” he had to do on Sunday was come and see me!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah, he even put up a profile on match.com. They had been emailing back and forth for about a month. They went on a date the Wednesday before 4th of July weekend. A weekend we planned on spending together. When I got up to his house, he was very distant and the vibe wasn’t very good. I asked him what was going on? Why was he acting like this? He told me that I was putting too much pressure on him. What kind of pressure? He told me that he didn’t feel like dealing with me. I decided that spending the weekend with him wasn’t a very good idea. He told me that he didn’t think that spending the weekend together was a good idea either, as a matter of fact, he thought about it during the week but didn’t want to tell me to save me a 2 hour drive. So, I picked up all my stuff I had around his house and went home 2 hours after I arrived. I didn’t understand, all I wanted to do was spend time with him. I didn’t want him to do anything other than spend time with me and let me know what was going on in his head.

That weekend he was all over the internet looking for a “hook up”. He was responding to craigslist ads all weekend looking for a one night stand!! Here is one of the emails he sent out to someone looking for a one night stand…

Re: hi

Saturday, July 5, 2008 7:29 PM

From:

“Paul XXXXXX” XXXX@yahoo.com

To: pers-742366132@craigslist.org

Hey,

Just another quick note, to let you know about me. I’m

single, unattached. I’m at my house. I’m

relocating to xxxxxxxx, but I’m in town to check on

my place.

I really like being with women. I’m 38, and I like

fulfilling the role of the younger man. There’s

nothing I won’t do to satisfy you completely. We can

have a really good time, and no one will know. And if

I’m in town again, which i will be, you can look me up

again.

paul

That weekend I thought we were having a fight. If he wanted it to be over, it could have been over that weekend. But he called me 2 days later looking to make-up and move on with our relationship. He told me that he wanted to talk and work through our issues. But he continued to talk to girls on the internet. Here is one string of emails between Paul and some girl named Jackie that he met on Facebook…

Re:RE: Stormy outside
Sunday, July 20, 2008 1:52 AM
From:”Paul XXXXX” <XXXXX@yahoo.com>
To:jackie_xxxxxx@hotmail.com

Hey jackie, you up?

———-
Sent from AT&T’s Wireless network using Mobile Email

——Original Message——
From: JACKIE <jackie_xxxxx@hotmail.com>
To: “Paul XXXXX” <XXXXX@yahoo.com>
Date: Fri, Jul 18, 2008 01:27 PM
Subject: RE: Stormy outside

It’s not stormy outside today, but I wish it were it is so hot. Kinda like you! I was just thinking of you and thought I would drop you a note. Just when we got back into touch…we lose touch again… speaking of touching…I would love to be close to you right now…. touch you…feel your breath on my ear…your skin on mine…. just talk….

08 06:05:30 +0000> Subject: Stormy outside>
From: xxxxxx@yahoo.com>
To: jackie_xxxxxxx@hotmail.com> >

Hi jackie. Its stormy outside again. Its dark and rainy. I know a place where we can watch the storm come in alone. I want to kiss the rain water that is streaming down your naked body and watch the lightning sparkle in your dark eyes…>

Sent from AT&T’s Wireless network using Mobile Email

RE: Stormy outside
Friday, July 18, 2008 3:28 PM
From:”Paul XXXXXX” <xxxxxx@yahoo.com>
To:”JACKIE” <jackie_xxxxxx@hotmail.com>

I’m doing alright. It’s been a bit boring here after
work because I don’t live around here, but soon i’ll
start making connections and having fun. How about
you? Do you have a man in your life who treats you
like you deserve, or have you found someone who you
can pretend is me? I wouldn’t be offended if you did.
Actually, it’s a bit exciting…If you ever feel
lonely and bored, you can write me at night. It would
be fun to talk to you after I go to bed

I wonder what he would say or do over the phone, while he’s talking to her in bed? Would he spank it?????? You decide!!!

These emails were sent while Paul and I were supposed to be “working things out.” What a crock!!! So, here is the story of what went wrong with our relationship. The day I found all these emails I was devastated. I even found an email that he sent to himself from his cell phone with a picture of his penis. I’m sure he wanted to send it to the whores he has erotic chats with.

Paul told me a story once about his ex-wife. He told me the end of their marriage was pretty bad. He suspected that she had met someone online and that one day she told him that she needed to take a vacation by herself. He suspected that she went to meet this man she met online. Soon after, she left him. Paul took several pages out of her book and played them on me. He knew how it felt to have someone cheat, he knew the pain, yet, he decided that I somehow deserved to know this same pain. Our whole relationship was a sham. I was someone to pass his time because he said that he never wanted to date anyone in his town, because his buddies had slept with all the women, married and unmarried.

All I ever did was try to be loving and supportive to the man I loved and in the end I got shit on!!! I am truly hurt and bewildered by these events. In the end, though, I know that I my love was not meant for Paul. He was merely a stepping stone to someone wayyyy better.

Why I Love BBC America!!

Two Words!!! A show called “Transvestite Wives”!!! I’m flipping through the channels, following a day of re-cooperation from a nasty cold. As I’m flipping through the channel guide I saw the two most wonderful words that put together mean Blogging gold!! “Transvestite Wives”. It’s a fabulous show!! Basically it profiles men that are “normal” during the day and then at night and on the weekends they dress up as women. Oh, joy!!!! There’s nothing I love better than a Hot Tranny Mess!!

Here are a few pics from the show’s web site…

The Myspace Weirdo’s

Ok, most of us have The Myspace pages.  They’re fun and a good way of keeping in touch with friends old and new.  All of us have gotten unsolicited emails from other myspace people, for whatever reasons.  A friend of mine got an email from some guy in the Northwest burbs of Chicago requesting a weird favor… here’s the letter…

My name is Mark from the near north suburb of Chicago
in Des Plaines. You are a Goddess and I’m hoping you
would be willing to help me on this very unique fun
wild opportunity You seem really cool. I hope you
might consider..

Please let me know what you think…

I am seeking a lady or a group of ladies ages 18-65,
willing to literally walk, stand, dance, jump on me,
above the waist, and have me lick their shoes clean
and smell and kiss their tired feet for fun or for my
Myspace Yahoo webpage “Chitown Trample. ” Great fun,
great way to let loose, vent anger frustrations, How
often do you get the chance to stomp all over a guy?
LOL

No sex or nudity involved. We will be dressed. I would
pay $120 cash if that would be an incentive. Just for
one hour of your time. Yes, I am for legit.

Interested? Want to know more? Not for you? Write me
back. Check my profile too!!

Mark The Carpetman

 

FREAK!!!  But too funny!!!

 

Flashback…90210

Ahh…the high school days…  The days of matte red lipstick, pale matte skin, (thank God for lip gloss and powdered bronzers with shimmer) ”grunge” attire, plaid flannel shirts with pale washed Levis 501 jeans.  Let us not forget the revival of the “Peace” era.  Peace Sign necklaces, smiley face shirts and jewelery, thick ribbon velvet chokers, suit vests with said Levi jeans.  I could go on and on…

I’ve discovered something interesting.  Something, that takes me back to my high school days, something, that, now, fills up my boring, work-laden afternoons.  I’ve discovered a website where you can watch any episode from the first 3 seasons of Beverly Hills, 90210.  YIPPEE!!!  So, for about 45 minutes a day I have been escaping to 90210-land. 

Life with Brandon, Brenda, Kelly, Steve, Dylan, Donna and Andrea (pronounced Au-nd-ree-a) has never been so familiar.  This show started the first year I was in high school.  I was addicted, as was every other 13-14 year old girl.  (I actually had a dream about Dylan last night, but that’s another blog!!  Those are details for my 32 year old self.)  I will try and update the blog everyday with my learned 90210 lessons. 

Toady’s episode was from season 3 titled “Perfectly Perfect.”  The episode starts with Kelly on a stair-master, workin’ up a sweat.  Her 18th birthday is looming and her perfect life is out of whack.  At this point in the season, she is dating Dylan, and things between her and Brenda are not so perfect.  Not to mention, her mother has their home up for sale, is in the middle of another divorce, has a new little sister and a freaky step-brother aka David Silver (ex-stalker).  So, I imagine that the stresses of changing life, things becoming out of her control have freaked her out.  So, controlling her weight is the only way that she can maintain some control.  Cut to the school yard, Kelly is sitting with Dylan, Kelly nonchalantly takes out a pack of diet pills and pops one.  Ah, ha!!  This is why she’s been acting so crazy, snapping at her family, just being an all around bee-othch!! 

The sub-plot has to do with Brandon and Steve going on a dating show called Love at First Sight.  It’s here that we meet Celeste.  If my memory serves me correctly, she recurrs in several episodes after this.  Of course, both Steve and Brandon have their sights set on the beautiful brunette, however, it’s Steve that Celeste chooses. 

After several more scenes of “Bitchy Pill-Popping Kelly” we fast forward to The Peach Pit, sight of Kelly’s surprise 18th birthday party.  Brenda is there, which was in question, because of the whole Dylan thing.  The whole gang is having a great time.  Kelly, however, is feeling flushed and excuses herself to the restroom.  There we see her freaking out, the screen goes blurry, she is drinking and splashing water on her face.  Next, Brenda goes into the bathroom to find Kelly for birthday cake.  Brenda walks in and finds Kelly passed out on the floor.  Cut to the hospital.  Here we find a doctor explaining to Kelly and her mother that just because you can buy diet pills over the counter, doesn’t mean that they’re safe.  He also instructs Kelly to look into an eating disorder help group.  yada yada…

What have we learned from this episode kiddies?  Over the counter diet pills are bad, illegal pills are good!!  LOL!  No, just kidding.  Over the counter medicines are safe when you take them as directed.  They are not safe when you take them at double or triple the directed amounts.  Just ask Heath Leger, he knows all about it!! 

Till next time… same 90210 channel, same 90210 time!!

Too Racy?

What are you looking at?

Greece has a high number of auto accidents. These high numbers have prompted concerned citizens and the government to take a second look at billboards. Would this billboard cause you to take your eyes off the road?

 

The Starter Wife

I have a new television obsession…The Starter Wife! This does not replace my need for Veronica Mars, but it’s good, clean bitchiness!! The Starter Wife is a 6 hour mini-series on the USA Cable Network. Adapted from Gigi Levangie Grazer’s book of the same title. The story revolves around the life of Molly Kagen, a studio exec’s wife or soon-to-be ex-wife.

The premise of the story goes like this…

Molly is a devoted wife and partner to her husband, when one day he asks for a divorce. Her world is then turned upside down, she is henceforth snubbed by the Hollywood community and exiled to her best friend’s Malibu beach house for the summer. In the meantime, her ex-husband, Kenny, is prancing around town with a Britany Spears like hooch, Shoshanna. Her best friend, Joan, is forced into rehab by her puritan husband, her other best friend, Cricket, is forced to turn her back on Molly because her director husband, Jorge (pronounced, whore-hay, fitting huh?), has a movie in the works and can’t have the studio executive mad. The only friend’s Molly has left is her gay interior decorator, Rodney and the security guard at the gated community gate, Lavender.

All this drama wouldn’t be complete if there weren’t a love interest(s)for Molly. The first possibility is Lou Manahan, her ex-husband’s boss. The second possibility, is the myterious stranger she see’s on the beach, Sam. Now, here come the twists, Lou seems to be a troubled man, the last time we see him in the series, he’s drunk, writing a letter and then wanders off to the beach and into the water. Sam, the more likely love interest for Molly, has a dubious past, it is revealed the Sam is homeless, and rely’s on the kindness of an older woman in “The Colony” (the name of the gated community).

I don’t want to give too much out, tune into USA Network, to see what happens next, or tune in to my blog for more updates!!!